So, I’ve really stopped using this for personal stuff.
Life just got so busy.
Took some great classes (one of which I will continue) and I’ve been working.
I have a lot of sadness in me right now. I guess that’s why I’m writing again. My nana sin’ doing too well. My dental insurance didn’t cover my recent root canal (paying out of pocket for that blows) and most recently, my roommate Jim (who was mad at me because I bought him a gift at Christmas time) is trying to make my life a living hell.
He verbally attacked me while I was in my bedroom. Called me a shitty person and a passive aggressive bitch. Said he didn’t give a fuck about my life and wouldn’t stop screaming at me. It all really came out of nowhere and took me by surprise. The worst part was when I went to close my door to make him stop and he threw his hand out at my face as if he were going to slap me. I was finally able to slam my door shut and lock him out.
Of course I had a massive breakdown following this. I couldn’t breath. Massive PTSD attack.
Now I feel like a prisoner in my own apartment. I spend as much time as possible away from this hell hole of an apartment. Tonight I even stayed an extra hour at work because I don’t feel safe here.
My other roommate and I are working on trying to find a new place to live. Until then, I’ll just keep locking myself in my room.
My advice to everyone: never live with a mentally fucked up person. Save yourself from shitty people